Saturday, August 4, 2012

Finding Freedom

Six months is a flipping long time to go without posting but I needed a break. I know, I should've warned you, let you down gently and maybe apologized a bit. But I didn't feel like it. It wasn't exactly running away from you or hiding, or even being petulant. It was more of a gentle taking back of my own space and time. And it happened naturally, almost without me realizing it. (Damn spell check keeps changing all my 's'ses to zeds and I don't recognize the new look of Blogger at ALL! They snuck that one in while I was away ;-)


The last six months have been spent SE.RI.OUS.LY sorting through the clutter and losing the extra weight. Literally. Like a whirlwind I've been emptying out every nook and cranny of objects that take up as much space in my mind as they do in my home and studio. OUT! OUT! I don't need you any more. Object, you are no longer a reflection of who I am now. You were once dear to me. And yes - I could make you into something ever so amazing. But your 'potential' fogs my mind and diverts me from the BIG MISSION I have chosen to sink my teeth into. Yes dear object, let's just say you would be better suited to some other Pinterest craft fanatic, and we must part ways.

Goodbye chandeliers with crystals. If we are destined to fall in love again, I trust our paths will meet at a local brocante some time in the future. Eternal optimist that I am ;-) Farewell drawers full of craft supplies that my mess monsters have shown absolutely no interest in. Ever. For They are not Me. I have to remember and respect that. Craft supplies, you will have a lovely time in another child's home being lovingly scrunched up, stamped on and scribbled over. Good bye vintage boxes that I don't want to fill up for the sake of it. Au revoir thousands of shiny bits and pieces that glitteringly consume too much space, in my head...

Talk about the outer life needing to be a reflection of the inner life!

And now, given so much fabulously Spacious Space, Euphoric Emptiness,  Clinching Clarity there is room for me to create. Once again. Oh Gloooorious Gleeful ME :)

Just between you and me, it's also a tad helpful that the mess monsters have disappeared for a couple of weeks and my 'space' is now handsomely accompanied by a generous SILENCE!

Anyhoo (as Kasey would say), I'm back. Happy to be back. Ready to be back. Itching to write.
Dearest Itch - I MISSED YOU! Thank goodness you've returned :)

I know it always was, but I claim this now as my space. Basically I'm just going to spill out anything that comes from my heart, as if I was talking to myself, or one of my best friends. YOU may take from it what you wish. Pray that with all this space, my sense of humour will come back too... It used to be wicked but got a little self conscious here in France due to cultural differences. We shall have to coax it out again, n'est ce pas? A wicked sense of humour is really quite essential and fun to have around. Life's a drag with out it.



 As ever, a big, uncluttered, spacious dose of love to you all

Ange

17 comments:

  1. Well I just love this. I did not even notice you were gone because I have been in a similar place. I've taken a step back from blogging this summer and am happy with the new rythm and return to what matters even more to me...homelife. Ive been letting go...of everything and have a deeper reality of the calm life I am always seeking after. Wishing you happiness in your own. ox

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    1. Seems like there's synchronicity happening everywhere at the moment Kerrie. Enjoy the rhythm and I'll pop over soon to see how you're faring by the sea :)xxx

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  2. Hi Dear Ange, how pleased we are to see you back again! and yes, please kindle the fire beneath your sense of humour, you know that its the best solution for dealing with whatever daily life can bring your way.
    love to you, and looking forward to seeing what goodies you will share with us
    Sharon
    xxxx

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    1. Oh Sharon I've already got the kindling ready. Just have to strike the match LOL. Really looking forward to catching up as well. Lots to share. We must chat soon :)

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  3. Well, I can, perhaps, help out with the wicked sense of humour.Just til your own naughty little mojo turns up.
    Bon chance, Ange!

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    1. I Knew you'd come through on that one Di ;-) I giggle every day at everything you send through too. Wish you were closer!! xxx

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  4. Absolutely lovely to 'see' you again! Clearing out is so cathartic, isn't it? Never apologize for doing what you need to do!

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    1. Rue, it's lovely to see you've taken the time to pop over. I'm still trying to get organised but I'll be over your way soon :)xxx

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  5. Missed you too, but luckily knew where to find you.

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    1. Luckily I know where to find YOU!

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  6. Hi Ange,
    So, so lovely to have you back in the land of blogging..........you have had a well-needed break.
    .....and, to have had a great sort out must have left you feeling refreshed, cleansed and revived ........ you wouldn't like to come and de-clutter my place would you ? haha.
    My old laptop finally gave up the ghost and I have been trying to get to grips with my shiny new MacBook Pro.....and , it certainly takes a bit of getting used to !! HENCE , my lack of posting and commenting.
    Looking forward to your coming posts, accompanied by that wonderfu sense of humour of yours. There is nothing so good for you than a huge dose of laughter !!
    Much love Ange....... we have all missed you so much. XXXX

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    1. Hey Jackie, we can swap Mac Book Pro horror stories together. I'm still coming to grips with mine too but I admit it's rapidly turning into a love affair. I just need the mental dexterity and lack of fear (about losing everything that's on here already) of my nine year old and I'm sure I'll figure it out quick smart. LOL. MUch love to you and looking forward to dropping by :)

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  7. Welcome back! Well done on your decluttering. I am very proud of you! Can you come round and help me please!!

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    1. I'm still feeling guilty about buying the messy book, joining the club and still never even starting the first page :( But I have a cunning plan to trick myself into doing it so I'll just reactivate your Facebook timeline all of a sudden when you least expect it ;-). Love the way you're moving forward with your work.

      Angexx

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  8. Hallelujah - you're back! Missed you badly. Of course, clearing the clutter is one thing, but did you think to send some of it my way? Hello vintage boxes!
    I'll forgive you just this once, only because it's you Ange, and what ever you write and create will make it all worthwhile. So pleased to see you back in the blog world.
    Amanda xx

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    1. Ooh - I believe I could send something your way if you sent me your address again. So nice to be back.
      Much love possum :)

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  9. Je ne suis pas sûre d'avoir tout compris car mon anglais est loin d'être parfait. Mais moi aussi, je suis super contente de te relire. L'attente a été longue ...

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Can't think of a famous quote that says 'communication makes the world go round' so you 'll just have to get my clumsy way of putting it instead ;-) Your comments are precious. Thanks for dropping by!